What introvert think about society and themselves?
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Sitting at the corner of a coffee house, I stared an empty
space. A space where nothing was present, a space that does not reflect
anything but keeps on absorbing matter, a space that is so dark that even black
hole will feel jealous. It was not the first time but I did it so many times
that it becomes a habit. A habit that started from nowhere and made me addicted
to the both coffee and empty spaces.
Life is very different from person to person for some it is
boon for other it is bane. It is amazing to look people happy, who enjoy in the
gatherings of their loved one but not everybody is so lucky to have this
luxury. When I was betrayed for the first time it felt normal then second time
it was awkward and then it becomes the routine. People are selfish and
everybody has to deal with it. I feel good living alone than to be in the
company of false people. People who do showoff who buy things just to impress others,
who chant their success stories, who insult other people, who do backbiting. Yes,
most of us have all the above traits, which is mandatory and necessary to be
included among the people from elite class, but anyhow I was never able to cope
up with it and eventually prefer to live life alone.
Sometimes I do think about the relations and material world but
the duration of thought is not enough to keep me interacted in these. I have
seen my up and downs, nobody came to console me when my time was bad. There are
so many luring things people have that the shine of soul is nowhere in front of
material shine. The more material one possess the more respect one gets. The
number party’s one throw defines the loyal friend one have.
The society is different and it is running by very different
people. The people like me do not fit to it that is the reason we are the one
who eventually come out having dinner alone. We are the people who buy single
ticket in theaters and we are the one who keeps on telling adventures about
solo travelling, we are the one who created hype to live life like a rock star
because we know that we do not fit into the society.
When I look into the sky I see stars but when society looks
it looks for the skyline. When I look into the road, I see a way when society
looks it looks for the destination. I do not try to find logic in every matter
but society looks for it. Society even laugh with the logic and search humor
with the same. I don’t fit into it. I feel more energized when I am alone and
feel people sucking my energy in the group.
I hate doing short talks and hate knowing outer attire of the
people. I love if the talks can be little longer and I love If I know people
with their soul rather than the belongings they have. I am as extrovert as
anyone else but I have my limits to show it. I love being creative and love to
produce things rather than sitting at one place consuming things and doing
nothing. Somewhere I feel there is an artist inside me and world change more
because of my actions than the decisions people take in extraordinary parties.
I love reading history and knowing about the personalities, I love relating
relations. I am bit emotional but intelligent. I do not pretend fake smile, if I
laugh I laugh for the reason. People call me introvert but I think I am not.
People talk about me on my back, they call me mad. People feel I have a problem
and attitude, they call me abnormal. People feel that I avoid them because of
fear , they call me coward. I avoid going to parties , they call me unsocial.
There are so many things in my life that I feel happy going to coffee house and
staring empty spaces. They tell me nothing but from them I tell something to
myself.
~ Nobody from the Society of Introvert
Note :- this is not a personal experience. I am ambivert :p
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